I just wanted that little bit of appreciation from you. Not just words. I just wanted to feel loved, knowing that you love me because of some things. Knowing what you love about me, knowing what I am to you. But..

我感觉不到。

两年多了。这两年我只知道你不喜欢我的很多的不好。还有你很多的不喜欢。我根本不知道我的重要。 两年，我只知道我对你的感觉还比你深。

I can't feel that love from you. I don't know at all, what you loved about me, or if you really love me. So much things about me you hate, you disapprove, you don't like. Almost 90% of me, you hate. At least that's what makes me feel from you. I can't feeling anything else from you. I've always been waiting for you, whatever you do, wherever you are. Even if we only have less than 10 significant memories together. It doesn't matter. I just wanted to know.. where I really am in your heart. What am I really to you. You always telling many many things, but many of these were never really true.

You always have so much complains about me, but what are the things that you love about me? Hate more than love, I guess, it's what I feel from you.. Always getting mad at everything.. I don't know what about me that is really dear to you.

Most of the time, I'm always sitting alone, waiting for you. Waiting for you to look at me a little bit more. Wishing how you would feel the moments were precious and treasured. & Feels how some times, what you do were half-hearted, and wish could end it soon, when with me.

All I wanted is for you to look at me more, look at me closely a little bit more.. but it seems further than I thought since more than a year ago. I get upset when I feel not important or appreciated. I feel more and more discouraged, I feel more and more useless.. You know.. Everyone needs some encouragement.. Just like you.. You need that too.. if everyone at work always discourage you without you knowing they actually were trying to push you, all the time.. how would you feel.. when you're home, me or your family does that too. How would you feel..

Why can't you ever love me properly. Why do you only listen to your own opinions and not even bothered to consider some of my views some times..? When things happen.. you gave yourself more issue, and some times I have to help to cover things as much as I can. When all these could be avoided.. Why don't you ever see it..