Tell me what should I do if he walks out of my life.

Many a times when incident occur, it's always because of me. I feel so guilty about it, & it really hurt me so bad. I don't want this to be the 2nd time I'm regretting. And if things were to happen, I'll be the reason for it. Cos it always seems like the case.

I'm not a human at all. How can be like this, when a life is already on the line. Someone who cares the most about me, who dotes me the most. Am I still a human. Why am I so heartless. Have you ever seen anyone, already seems like their last breath, with their eyes clothes, fighting their very best to be "awake" and yet calling out for you?

I know, I'm really a bad daughter, I really do not know how to face you some times. Cos I'm very guilty about how I have made you felt. How I have made you cried and faint like this.