A fortune teller told me not to think, because it will be all over soon. How true can that be? A lot has been on my mind for the past few weeks. I guess I'm pretty messed up, thinking about everything altogether. Family, relationship, friendship, school, personal finance and myself. I feel like I'm a failure in all aspects. Then as much as I wanted to avoid thinking or to even just smile a bit, I made a wrong move without knowing it. How low can I be.

Even though the thought of skipping class did flashed across my mind for a second, I will not do as my brain says. Every time I started thinking, this happens. I can't let my thoughts take over control of my responsibility as a student.. Every single thing seems drifting apart right now.. and I really am feeling stressed up. But I can't speak. I won't talk to anyone, neither am I able to speak. Cos I do not know who to talk to anymore.

All I had in mind that kept me sane was to keep reminding myself that I need to dissolve all these within me, and do not fall into a depression like I did many many years ago. I need to dissolve, not bottle it up. DISSOLVE IT.